Tonight, after everyone has gone to bed is a very different story. I'm just so sad. I miss Miss Kitty so much. I don't know if anyone else can really understand my strong emotions with this. I've had many cats over the years. I've said good bye to many cats over the years, some I really had hated saying good bye to, and I was genuinely sad.
This is different. I feel that a really important friend has been taken from me before I was ready. I knew she was getting old and I knew the day would come. But...I didn't want it to come and I was in denial.
Non-cat people, or even general people may think that I'm being really silly or immature or something. Sorry...but this is how I feel. Besides Bruce, Miss Kitty was virtually my first "friend" when I came to Marysville. She has been beside me as much or more than Bruce has been. She knew when I needed a friend; she knew when I needed snuggling; she gave me love; she responded to me when I called her name...she would come running; she would 'meow' when you said "Miss Kitty" and could carry on a "conversation" with her. She listened and loved me without judging me...not many others in this world do that.
When I try to lay down to sleep last night and tonight, it doesn't come for a long time. I need to go back and try again tonight, but I know I will lay there for a long time. I know where my mind will be, and I don't want to think about it again, so here I am. Hoping the next time I go back to bed I will be tired enough I will fall asleep quicker.
I miss my friend terribly....and I just want the whole to fill and not be sad anymore.
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